Thursday, March 5, 2009

Its been a while since i could hear my own voice again....

Well to be precise i have quit my job. Salsa is the new reason to smile and keeps me going. Some new hiccups and lots of delusional stuff but then i guess the timing couldn't be better to start all over gain and re-invent what the world calls as "Chirag".

To begin with my silence over all that's happening and my reaction to it as well here is a small passing by thought....


Its been a while since i felt this alone
Alone though with so much happening around
Life of all sorts- sweet & nice, irritating yet distracting
Keeping me engrossed every single day & night

Life that is like two worlds for me
Balanced finely along one another
One incomplete, unfulfilled without the other
One filling the stomach, the other the heart

It always happens that one world goes down
The other somehow trying to stabilize
Pulling both up isnt easy and i sometimes fumble
Get bruised, abandoned, left alone to cry, wake up alone

There is so much more to do and never enough to say
Every moment that passes by i wonder why
I end up changing my house or the paint on my walls
Why i change my pair of shades every time i need to look up????

I wish i can tell someone that i live, i like to laugh
That i too fall down and that i don't need anyone's support
But once i am up i need you not to stare me in the face
Rather look pleased at my return and hug me tight....


Wish you didn't run away at the first sight of my fall. Its just a matter of time i stood up and never looked better. Only if you had waited....

15 comments:

Gauri said...

:):) in this post ..it felt as though the thoughts are mine and words are yours ...Keep up the writing Chirag.

ceedy said...

If life were that easy...we would not have such good writing...

Mahesh Sindbandge said...

Hmmm..Its always too obvious that we start from fallen-state and end up at the "stood once again " state. Life looks lovely that way...but it never works out that way cuz our deeds are in our control but not of those from whom we expect things like " a lovely hug"..

well well...what am i writing?

Good work chirag... i was touched with it..Almost everyone can relate themselves with this poem...:)

Inspiration said...

:( no comments. All the best! and Keep up the good work.

Rakesh Vanamali said...

Life is an ongoing battle! I can so very well relate to those lines you so thoughtfully penned!

Many congratulations on the knocking off the job part! I'm sure life is much better and worthy doing what one loves!

ReVelatIon nd TrutH said...

hey...things wil come around for sure... :)
and sorry i cudn say dis for ur earlier post, but Welcome back! :)

Anand said...

Ahh..Well said. But it was no SMALL passing thought. lol.

I'll be back to read more.

Andy. :-)

Nebula said...

At least you have Salsa as an option!
.. Be positive, Times will change, All for the better :)
My Best Wishes

usha said...

'Life that is like two worlds for me...... One filling the stomach, the other the heart'
-you just said it! its like the realisation many of us had, who thought of pursuing our heart's calling and to make a living out of it, only to realise that sometimes its just better not to expect too much out of it.. let it remain a hobby or something we pursue and do something mainstream to earn our bread'n butter.

and in the longer run, the two worlds kind of re-inforce each other, which helps stabilise our lives in ways we never would've thought of!

beautiful post! *hugs*

mixdbrew said...

Hmm...i've always believed you should follow your dreams, however hard the path may be. It takes a lot to do that. And you have done it :)

Anywez...The rise happens only after a good, hard fall :)

aria said...

I loved the penultimate para.. very touching Chirag.
Hope you are doing well.. and you'd post more often .. for the moment enjoy salsa et al..

Tulika Verma said...

"There is so much more to do and never enough to say
Every moment that passes by i wonder why
I end up changing my house or the paint on my walls
Why i change my pair of shades every time i need to look up??"

How beautiful! Loved it!

Chaggoholic.... said...

@Gauri m really reactin late to ur comment. Thnks so much for relatin wid me....

@Ceedy my man good writing comes wid hard times. So true....

@Mahesh i have fallen yet again and yet again i hv no one to hug..Thanks for stoppin by

@Jay thnx dear....

Chaggoholic.... said...

@Rakesh i did wat i love and somehow again it was dependent on ppl other than me to reap wat i sowed so even following the heart doesnt guarantee satisfaction....

@Ranjana thnks dear and i m so happy for u....

@Andy my man thnx a lot plz kp comin i guess i m gonna kp comin more often now....

@Nebula thnx for ur wishes my dear....

Chaggoholic.... said...

@Usha thnx my dear for the hugs....

@Mixedbrew i fell again;)

@Aria my darls u r one i always look upto for godly advise....

@Tulika m glad u liked it thnx for comin....